Day 20: Get Real. Share Something I’m Struggling with Right Now
If you want to forego the vanity talk, then by all means, no offense if you don’t read today’s post…for those that don’t mind the “realness” in me coming out, then feel free to read on. This is going to come out as sounding ungrateful and petty, but it’s something I am really struggling with and I just want to be honest.
I am tired of being pregnant, and I just want to look and feel normal again.
There, I said it…I guess it wasn’t so bad-just kinda stings like when you rip off a band-aid. Does it make me a horrible person to admit that publicly? Maybe so. In all honesty, I feel like I have been pregnant forever. In some form or fashion, I have been pregnant the past 3 years (2011, 2012, and now 2013) and I just want to feel like “me” again. I want to have my body back, I want to wear my normal clothes, and I want my self confidence back. I’m turning 30 in less than two months, and not only is that a “big birthday”, but it’s me telling myself that I want to look and feel good as I enter this next phase in my life.
These days, I feel like a big ball of blubber and the only thing that helps is taking a shower, putting on makeup, fixing my hair, and putting something semi-decent/non moo moo cow on before I head out the door.
I know my husband doesn’t have it easy either…he has to deal with me talking about how tired I am, how my belly constantly itches, how my legs have gotten fat, and now my feet look horrendous by the end of the day from all the swelling. But geez! At least he doesn’t have to deal with all of this happening to his body all over again for the second time in two years. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again…I don’t think men could physically deal with all the craziness that consumes women during pregnancy-they just don’t understand EVERYTHING that happens during these glorious 9/10 months while you’re developing a human. Now I obviously understand more of the reasons that God made Eve.
Everyone tells me it’s harder to lose the baby weight after #2 comes along, and I will be damned if I am going to let that happen to me. No matter what I have to do, I am promising myself that I will get my “pre-baby” body back…if there is something I am passionate about, it’s maintaining a healthy lifestyle so I know if I put my mind to it, I can achieve it. It might not fall off overnight, but it WILL be gone.
So, be on the lookout for a drastic change from me once Carson comes. I know Jeff is dreading me going to the grocery store because our pantry shelves will no longer be stocked with sugary cereals, chips, and processed foods galore, but we will instead be eating healthy again…loads of fruits, veggies, and lean meats. I will still be cooking the food we both love to eat, but will be making better choices about the ingredients I use.
And then there comes the workouts…no more 30 minute trips to the gym for this lady, but my hour long sessions will resume and I’ll be doing way more cardio than I have been, just because that helps me lose the baby weight quickly.
Thanks for listening to me vent today blogging friends and readers. It’s an internal struggle but I hope you’ll help me with encouraging words and affirmations, or share your trusted trips and tricks so I can get my skinnies on again 😉